Honest dispatches from a well-examined life. C.P. James writes about writing, self-discovery, and the occasional existential crisis.
Why would a conservative Midwesterner try ayahuasca at 48? C.P. James begins a five-part series on plant medicine, self-discovery, and the search for truth.
Read MoreThe improbable true story of a spider who kept escaping, and why C.P. James can't stop thinking about it.
Read MoreLost Chapter 9 of Xeno Xoo: Claustrophobia. Bonus content from the Cytocorp Saga.
Read MoreLost Chapter 8 of Xeno Xoo: The Tunnel Metaphor. A deleted scene from the Cytocorp Saga.
Read MoreLost Chapter 7 of Xeno Xoo: Loud-Ass Ministry. An unexpectedly loud encounter in this bonus chapter.
Read MoreLost Chapter 6 of Xeno Xoo: Dinner With the Junts. A deleted scene expanding the Cytocorp Saga universe.
Read MoreLost Chapter 5 of Xeno Xoo: Crypsids Hit the Town. Bonus content from the Cytocorp Saga.
Read MoreLost Chapter 4 of Xeno Xoo: The Crew Catches Up. A deleted scene from the Cytocorp Saga.
Read MoreLost Chapter 3 of Xeno Xoo: Entering Randhra. The crew ventures into new territory in this bonus chapter.
Read MoreLost Chapter 2 of Xeno Xoo: The Safety Video. A deleted scene from the Cytocorp Saga.
Read MoreLost Chapter 12 of Xeno Xoo: Denk's Rescue, Part Two. More bonus content from the Cytocorp Saga.
Read MoreLost Chapter 11 of Xeno Xoo: Crypsid Homecoming. The Crypsids find their way home in this bonus chapter.
Read MoreLost Chapter 10 of Xeno Xoo: Denk's Rescue. A deleted scene from the Cytocorp Saga.
Read MoreLost Chapter 1 of Xeno Xoo: Welcome to Durandia. Bonus content expanding the world of the Cytocorp Saga.
Read MoreA conversation with an 82-year-old changed how C.P. James thinks about curiosity, growth, and what it means to never stop learning.
Read MoreA counterintuitive lesson: how getting better at something you love can quietly ruin it. C.P. James learns this the hard way.
Read MoreA detailed look at what happens inside a plant medicine retreat — the preparation, the ceremony, the people, and what comes after.
Read MoreSix hard-won lessons from plant medicine ceremonies. What C.P. James took home and is still figuring out.
Read MoreA deeper dive into the second San Pedro ceremony and what it revealed that the first one couldn't.
Read MoreInside the first San Pedro ceremony: the setting, the experience, and what emerged on the other side.
Read MoreC.P. James begins a four-part series on San Pedro cactus ceremonies — the context, the skepticism, and the decision to try.
Read MoreA frank accounting of what a book launch actually looks like — sales, reviews, lessons, and what keeps a writer going.
Read MoreWhat happens when you read the first novel you wrote and never published? C.P. James does it so you don't have to.
Read MoreBehind the scenes of launching Dome Six, the first book of the Cytocorp Saga — what worked, what didn't, and what comes next.
Read MoreC.P. James shares the unconventional cold remedy that actually works. Practical, a little weird, and probably true.
Read MoreThe first lost chapter of the Cytocorp Saga — a deleted scene that expands the world beyond what made it into the books.
Read MoreA humbling encounter with real competence and what it taught C.P. James about ego, capability, and knowing your limits.
Read MoreChurchill's words changed history. C.P. James watches 'Darkest Hour' and feels something complicated about the power of language.
Read MoreA fishing trip to Chicago and a lunker fish become the backdrop for a meditation on solitude, friendship, and the ones that get away.
Read MoreThe first ayahuasca ceremony: what it's like to surrender to a plant and come face to face with yourself.
Read MoreThe preface and setup for the Xeno Xoo lost chapters — bonus content for readers who want to go deeper into the universe.
Read More